Another Blog

Ive been trying to blog for years, you would think I would have more than enough to blog about....my life is no where near normal tho I wish it was at times. I had another blog but felt it didnt fit. My life isnt just about my daughter having cancer, its about me being a mommy. I was a mommy before cancer decided to touch down in our house. Ive been a mommy for almost 5 years or well from the moment I conceived depending on who you talk too. Feb. 13th time unsure I gave birth to a blue eyed little girl. I wanted nothing but to be a mommy, ever since I could remember that is all I wanted to be. Tho if you ask my parents they would say i wanted to be a mom who married a rich man who had maids lol. My mom was a wonderful mom so i think having her made me want to be amazing mom. I can still remember as a little girl running to her for everything, tho for a long time it was just my mom and I. Long story short like half of america my parents divorced when I was young and well as messed up as this is my mom took me and sent my two older brothers to live with my father, no words. But not that I would say it was a replacement but my mom married amazing man while i was still young and he became my dad. So this may sound sad but I can count on 1 hand how many times ive seen my brothers and dad in the 28 years ive been alive, yeah sad I know. But this was never by choice......Guess my parents thought this was the best thing for a family of 4 haha joke on them not so much. Wow just sitting here writing this I just realized my mom was 28 when they divorced and Im 28. I will not be going down that road regardless how hard the road gets between Chad and I and let me tell you im very surprised we haven't. I'll write about that a different day. Im basically just writing to put something on the page right now. So hopefully I keep up with this haha.....We shall see!