DEX!!

Yesterday i watched Moms night out, wow eye opener. I feel just like that mom at times. I always feel like Im not good enough for me or my family. Im sure every mom feels this way at times, i mean im always cleaning, breaking up fights,cooking something at all times, breaking up more fights, cleaning more and yet in my eyes nothing looks clean or good enough to pass the mother in law test haha. Then on top of all the mommy/wife things i have to be a nurse and make sure Haylee is getting the medicines she needs on the right day and the dose is always changing so remembering even if i do wright it down i have to double check most of the time. Her chemo dose is 2.75ml try finding that on a syringe, i have to guess 90% of the time. Why cant they just make it easier on me and make it 3ml lol

I miss sleeping in, I am a person who LOVES sleep. I guess when you have kids you just kiss sleep goodbye. Every morning I hear this first thing and not in a soft voice ARE YOU GETTING UP? I NEED BREAKFAST. Can we say brat. Haylee is always hungry but never for what i make, which is fine but not cheap. Normal parents would say oh its a growth spurt but cancer mommies say no its DEX!! This awful steroid they take for a week once a month that turns them into a monster that does nothing but eat eat eat! She wants "Mexican"  cheese which is that cheese with the orange top, chicken patties, white cheese dip and so much more. Then you have poor Hunter who never wants to eat unless its on the run as in dinners on the table and his idea of eating is taking a bite running to play then coming back 2 minutes later then runs away, I try to explain to him that if he would just sit down to eat that would be faster than all the up and down he does but hes 2 and is answer is no or why mommy lol so we throw more food away then we ever eat which drives me crazy because its so wasteful and im not made of money like they think i am. Dont even get me started on the money thing lol Haylee is so spoiled, i mean crazy spoiled that shes asking for a bigger room. haha I'll save that struggle for another day........